Phew! It sure does feel good to sit down and blog! I’ve had such a busy few week/months and things are finally readjusting and I feel comfortable enough to sit down and gather my thoughts.
I usually have music playing through Pandora or similar when I’m in-world. I was shopping with my good friend Static when one of my favorite songs came on. It’s so amazing how a song can bring up old feelings and images that make you remember a simple time. I found myself playing the song on youtube on a loop. Maybe it was the Met Gala? Or the song, but. It inspired this outfit I got from BTTB. As soon as I saw it, I could see the type of photo I wanted to take with it. I love when clothes can inspire you.
My boyfriend is the same way. He’ll see a build and it will inspire him and before I know it. the sim has changed and gone in a different direction. I actually can’t wait to show you guys what he’s been working on! It seriously looks like an oil painting. I’m constantly blown away by his creativity.. Him being creative. Inspires me.
Also, before I close this blog. I’d like to touch on something that has bugged me a bit. Lately, I’ve been getting lots of inworld IM’s about my shape/skin/body. I’d like to say that those details are always on my blog. If I’m inworld I’m usually busy. Please respect my space. I just wear the bodies. I do not make them. I can not. and will not answer questions about a mesh body that I did not create or answer questions that can easily be found by using google or contacting the creator of said body.
Anyway, I hope you all have a lovely weekend!
Good luck, -M
Hair- [INK] Hair___SERIOUS
Eyes- IKON Hope Eyes Wight
Outfit- BTTB mord shirt & belt@TMD
Skin- AG Trevor
Shape- My own not for sale.
Body- -Belleza- Jake Body
A pearl is a beautiful thing that is produced by an injured life. It is the tear [that results] from the injury of the oyster. The treasure of our being in this world is also produced by an injured life. If we had not been wounded, if we had not been injured, then we will not produce the pearl. -Stephan Hoeller
I hope you’re all having a lovely day, I’ve found myself a bit overwhelmed over the past couple of weeks. When something big happens you find yourself looking back on people and situations you’ve wasted time on. You realize how short life can be.. and it scares you. You question everything. Plans you’ve made, personal milestones you’ve worked hard to accomplish seem so far away. And sometimes it takes breathing to realize that you’re the same person you were before everything went upside down. You’re glorious. Even if you have bruises from the past or new ones that keep forming.
I’ve lived my life in shame of the bruises people have caused in my heart. I’ve felt ashamed of letting people in only to have them take advantage of my kindness. I’ve had my world turned upside down and inside out and I’m still standing. In this life things will put a dent in your plans, things will happen that will shift your focus. Life will make a warrior out of you. But no matter how many dents or bruises life throws at me. I know I’ll be ok. Because I have a sturdy foundation filled with people who love me and want to see me at my best. Even when I’m a bundle of tantrums.
I’m very lucky to have the support system I do. I’m lucky to be able to reach out to my boyfriend day or night and have him be there for me. Growly Dad-jokes and all. I’m lucky to have friends in SL that will make me laugh when I need it, cry when I have to and are always up for a dorito fueled shopping adventure. I think we can all agree that I, loooove to get my shop on. Theirs so many events opening and lots of men’s events that I’m so excited to photograph.
Anyway, in closing. Remember to breathe, remember you are human. Make something for you that your grandmother would have. Snuggle up when it’s windy and read a book. And know, that no matter how hard something is. No matter how rough things get. You will be ok.
Hat- rabu. – leather fedora
Hair- Modulus – Tommy Hair
Sweater- Clef de Peau.Loose Shirt White
Eyes- IKON Hope Eyes – Rustic
Skin- AG. Trevor
Shape- my own not for sale
Body- –Belleza- Jake Body
Headphones- MANDALA EARGASM headphone
“You were born with potential. You were born with goodness and trust. You were born with ideals and dreams. You were born with greatness. You were born with wings. You are not meant for crawling, so don’t. You have wings. Learn to use them and fly.” ~Rumi
Wow, February has been tough, hasn’t it? I have to say, seeing social media and the way these young kids are so fearlessly standing up for who they are and what they believe in really does fill me with hope. I am in constant awe of how brave these children are and how they continue to support one another. it fills me with so much hope for the future knowing that it will be in caring brave hands. I know watching the news can be a little stressful and sometimes can weigh on you. So please if you can remember to take a step back and breathe a bit. I know this is a lot easier than it sounds, but sometimes it’s important to take a few seconds to emotionally check in with yourself and do what you need to be ok.
After I write this, I’m going to follow my own advice and watch a few movies that have always made me smile. I caught a tiny case of the blues today and I’m working my way through it. I’ve been listening to music and watching funny youtube videos. I even hung out with some of my very close friends and it managed to kind of pull me out of my little dark corner. It’s hard to be sad when you have a dorrito head and lil bb icon to make you laugh constantly.
I’m currently researching home remedies for a common cold! Ah, yes. It appears the sniffles have gotten the wolf bae down and I decided to take it upon myself to make him feel better! any way I can!. OH! I have good news! If you know me. You know I’ve been in love with Mandala for the longest time. It’s pretty much the only ears I wear. I was recently personally asked to be a blogger for them and it made my day. Mandala has been one of the few designers I have always been a fan of. I remember going to the main store and spending hours there buying jewelry and accessories. My first piercings were from Mandala and I’ve pretty much only go to them for my piercing needs.
Anyway, I’m gonna lay down and watch some Harry Potter. I hope you all have a great day!
Mask- Lanevo Glouton Mask
Hat- Swallow the ears of ibiza Silver
Hair- Stealthic – Narcotic
Jacket/robotic enhancement- MGmen’s_Jacket_X-Bionic@TMD
Backpack- VRSION SLASH 5 Back Pack With Katana
Pants- DUFAUX- long john@Fameshed
Boots- [Gos] Triumph Boots
Skin- AG Trevor
Shape- My own not for sale
Eyes- IKON Hope Eyes wight
Body- -Belleza- Jake Body
“Peace is the beauty of life. It is sunshine. It is the smile of a child, the love of a mother, the joy of a father, the togetherness of a family. It is the advancement of man, the victory of a just cause, the triumph of truth.” -Menachem Begin
I hope you all had a wonderful weekend. I know I sure did. I took a few naps, ordered food from a few of my favorite places and watched a few movies. I was finally able to watch the Tom Of Finland movie. For some of you who don’t know, Tom has always been a personal hero of mine. His artwork has always influenced and impacted my own artwork, in real life and SL. I remember stumbling upon his artwork when I was young and being blown away by how open and free it was. I was glad I was able to see a different side of Tom, a side I really didn’t know about. Seeing his struggles made me feel better about my own.
My boyfriend and I started construction on our new sim. I never knew decorating could be this much fun. Or even that I could decorate. I’ve had so much fun rezzing all my animals and placing them, I finally found my ferrets or snakecat mousedragons as we call them in our house. (I lost them in my inventory for so long.) It’s so adorable to see them sniffing the air and being adorable. I think they’re from mish mish? If you have a chance check them out they’re so adorable!
Anyway! I went on a shopping adventure! I scoured the grid looking for men’s clothes that I didn’t own. I went from shops to events and finally, my feet landed at TMD. I thought I got everything I wanted from there when I saw a jacket from VALE-KOER .Which is one of my favorite stores. I was shook! It’s a hoodie with a face that’s the most adorable thing ever. I’ve never hit purchase so hard. I paired it with some riot shorts, socks, and some cox shoes. I also went to explore backdrop city. I was a little bummed to experience the epic lag, but it’s seriously an amazing sim. I’m actually writing this blog post while I try a backdrop gacha I saw there.
Hair-Modulus – Stefan Hair@TMD
Jacket-[VALE KOER] HYPERBEAST HOODIE@TMD
Shorts-RIOT / Emery Shorts
Socks-DUFAUX – belleza jake – hybrid socks
Shoes-COX* Hight Sneakers HEAVEN
Body-Belleza- Jake Body
Shape-my own not for sale
Eyes-IKON Hope Eyes-chocolate
I’d like to start off this blog post, by wishing you all a happy new year! January was so busy for me. I kept finding myself distracted by things. At one point, I decided to take a step back and really enjoy January. Doing so, allowed me to really celebrate my birthday. It allowed me to open up and enjoy things I normally wouldn’t even notice.I found that being in a stable happy environment surrounded by people who love you, gives you strength to overcome things you might have been afraid of. Or to even see things you might have been missing.
I’m happy the holiday season is over. But if I’m being honest, I’m going to miss the holidays. I’m going to miss the twinkling lights and cookies. I’m going to miss the awful sweaters and little elves. But, In so many ways, I’m glad they are over. I’m glad I can jump back into my normal schedule of cuddling my boyfriend and listening to him grumble and talk about decor. We are currently working on a farm sim, that’s coming along quite nicely. You know your boyfriend loves you and has a decor addiction when he’s willing to build a house for you and your alts. Thank god, for all the events coming out with more and more furniture type things. I look forward to all the events that are featuring more and more men’s items. I’m so excited to see the wonderful creations people are putting out each month.
2017 had its ups and downs. But It had to be one of the best years of my life. I made friends with people after it being so hard for me to even speak to anyone outside my little bubble for so long. I’ve made friends with some really amazing people inworld.
friends that have made me laugh. Friends with whom I can watch Rupauls Dragrace with and will get my weird fashion references. It’s those friends that have made me laugh on days I felt sad, that have gone on shopping adventures with me at 3: am fueled by orange soda and Chinese food. Those friends who were patient and kind with me that have made my days so much brighter.
So, here we are. In February, the month of superbowls and valentines day cards. Love is in the air they say. And honestly, I couldn’t agree more.
Hat-Spiked Mouse Cap
Hair-Modulus – Stefan Hair@TMD
Cat-Pixicat Wonderland cat
Jacket-FAKEICON / dizen coat / black /@TMD
Harness-Mossu – Spiky.Harness
Pants-L&B * JAKEfit* Swear Slacks V2
Body-Belleza- Jake Mesh Body
Shape-My own not for sale.
“Truth is a deep kindness that teaches us to be content in our everyday life and share with the people the same happiness.” – Khalil Gibran
Hey guys! I hope you’re all enjoying the holiday season! I have been watching Stranger Things honestly non-stop for a few days now. If you haven’t watched it. I encourage you to! It has to be one of the most thrilling T.V shows I’ve seen in quite a while!
I must say, this is the first year I’ve actually felt the holiday spirit in quite some time. I remember a few years ago an old friend/roommate of mine kept Halloween decorations up, all through December until mid-January. Because I tend to roll my eyes at anything red and green wrapped in gold or silver. But this year feels different. I thought it was because I put my RL tree up early. Then I thought it might have been because my boyfriend has been listening to Christmas music since November. But I realized this year I tried my hardest to surround myself with positive energy. Doing that has allowed my holiday spirit to flourish and things I typically was afraid of. I was able to tackle head-on and even embrace.
Life can be like that sometimes. Things we get scared of, we embrace when we have the support we need. It makes scary things a little less scary when you have a hand on your back telling you how everything will be ok. I learned a lot this year. About myself, about others. I learned you will fall. You’re allowed to make mistakes, people will hurt you. But I also learned people will catch you. People will forgive your mistakes and sometimes, sometimes even people can heal you.
Hairbase-[i.mesh] – Hairbase#7 BLACK – CATWA/OMEGA
Electrodes- SEMLLER Gacha electrodes (rare)
Hospital gown- SEMLLER hospital gown gacha
Skin-AG trevor skin
Shape-my own not for sale.
“Bad things do happen; how I respond to them defines my character and the quality of my life. I can choose to sit in perpetual sadness, immobilized by the gravity of my loss, or I can choose to rise from the pain and treasure the most precious gift I have – life itself” –Walter Anderson
WHOA! November is turning out to be one busy month. My boyfriend and I are in the middle of remodeling our sim. We thought it would be nice to have a big house filled with holiday feels. I’d like to thank people for the overwhelmingly positive response to my last blog! Your kind words really mean so much to me!
I want to talk quickly about blocking people for self-care. I’m also feeling very vulnerable about talking about this? But I was in a situation where after the millionth “I’m sorry” I decided it was time to block. I’m a firm believer that apologies that aren’t met with actual change are performative. And they’re bullshit.. We talk about blocking or muting when it comes to trolls. We don’t talk about muting and blocking when it comes to relationships. Or former relationships. Or friendships or former friendships. Because sometimes. Ya just have to block. Not because they are a bad person. But because they have been a bad person to you.
It takes one bad action to change your perspective on someone forever. I think it’s healthy to block someone for yourself. if I need to not exist to you on social media and I need you not to exist to me. And I need you stop making me part of your narrative. Because you’ve hurt me to the point where I can’t have a good day because I’m reminded of the bad things you’ve done to me. Then I reserve the right to block/mute/ban. I’ve noticed people tend to be like emotional vampires. They stay stuck in one mode, reading over everything you say and drawing their own absurd conclusions. They’ll suck up energy. and linger when theirs no need to especially when someone has clearly moved on. They’ll linger because perhaps they have nothing better to do? People have an aversion to hearing how you hurt them. They fire back with “you hurt me too’s” or “It was a bad day…”
People like this stay stuck. They stay stuck in the past because looking to the future frightens them. I don’t believe in that. I believe sometimes it’s best to let someone go before they hurt you even more. I believe in the good in people. I believe in remembering the good in people and dusting off your shoulders and moving forward. I wish these people had enough heart and self-love to do the same. Sometimes the healthiest and most spiritual cleansing thing you can do. Is taking a hard look at yourself in the mirror. Judge your own actions. As if they were being done to you. And ask yourself not how you can be a better person. But how you can be the best version of yourself. A good friend of mine recently told me “Life is a mirror, it’s reflective of who you are. If your friends cut you out of their lives completely. Then chances are, you handed them the scissors.”
So, here’s to being unstuck.
Good luck. -M
P.S Special thanks to the amazing minds at AviGlam for my glow up!
Antlers-Izzie’s – Reindeer Antlers & Rudolph’s Sparkly Nos
Hair-Lock&Tuft oscar @ShinyShabby
Eyes-Ikon hope eyes in chocolate.
Coat/shirt-:GB:: Fur Hoodie set @ShinyShabby
Cookie Cat-::Static:: Cookie Cat
Skin-AG. Trevor Skin – Catwa @MOM
Shape- my own not for sale
Body-Belleza- Jake Body